Darkeyes666's Blog

Hello,

The doctor has told us that he needed surgery, it went so fast. On saterday evening they told us that they were going to remove the tumor and that it would be done on monday. They took him to the surgery room and the waiting took hours. I was thinking and my thoughts were everywhere. The doctor has told us that there was a chance that he could die, he said that its always dangerious to do surgery in a person's head. My boyfriend was there when he said so but I dont think he could hear him. He came out of the surgery well, the doctors said it went good. I have waited for over 8 hours. It took so long. And the waiting was killing me. I have been visiting him whenever the hospital allowed me to. He seems more out of the world than before, he looks at me with his beautiful eyes and it looks like he is in so much pain! he woke up on wednesday. According to the doctor it might take a while for him to be well again. Looking at him, makes me think it will take so long and so much pain, tears and falling down. The doctor said that there might not be a full recovery but just partly. For me a partly recovery will do it, I want him to see his daughter grow up, and I want my baby Anna to have her dad to grow up with. I want them to do fun things together! I am seeing someone to talk with, I cant handle it all on my own. My baby thank God is better and she is laughing again so thats the one good thing right now. My heart and soul are depending on hope and faith.

Razorblade kisses and HIM hugs,

Lieke..

My dear friends,

Like I have told you my boyfriend has been admitted in the hospital. They have checked him out, and did all kind of tests. The doctor has told us yesterday that he has a braintumor, and it presses on one of his nerves. That explained why he collapsed a couple of times. It is heartbreaking for me to see him like this. He is not arround much you know. He sleeps a lot and when he is awake it looks like he is in deep dreams. As if he is not there. It hurts so much. The doctors havent decided if they are going to give him chemo, or that they will remove the tumor. Honestly I am kind of off with my thoughts. My baby is getting better everyday. Its all so painfull, now our daughter has been born a couple of months ago, I was hoping for us to get married, and have a wonderfull live togheter, but I'm not sure if we ever will... Will he be fine after the doctors helped him? I dont even know if they can help him.

I'll keep you updated, as Jessica asked me to do. Thank you dear for all your sweet messages!

Razorblade kisses,

Lieke..

Hello everyone,

I wanted to say to everyone that I wont be here on buzznet for a couple of days, my baby is sick, she has got a cold and I need to be there for her, and my boyfriend is sicker than we thought. He collapsed on 12th of march and the doctor said he just needed to eat more and take some rest, he gave him some medicine. But yesterday he collapsed again, and we went to the hospital and well he is still there, they are going to check him up. Doing all kind of tests. He complains about having pain in his head. He is on a this machine that helps him breath, and I'm very worried about him and I cant come on here, I can cry so hard right now, I'll check up on you guys later.

I'll miss you guys. Especially you Jessica (1814) and chantal (drusilla18).

Razorblade Kisses,

Lieke..